Have You Ever Felt Like Me?

I shouldn't be writing this at the first place

Why would I explain myself to a stranger, to you.

But still, I wanted you to listen

To a story not worth telling to anyone I know

Have you ever felt ignored? Unheard all the time.

I do.

It's harder than being voiceless

Little voices wanted to escape my head but the doorway's always closed

Have you ever felt anger so much, you wanted to just burst it all out in their faces

I do.

But still, I chose to just turn my back and lock myself in my own darkness

I'd rather chose to kill them with silence

Than to stab them with my words

Have you ever tried giving up every single thing that keeps you alive

I do.

So I can live with their expectations

Giving up what I want

So I can be wanted in return.

Have you ever felt sucked up so much it just leaves you so empty?

I do.

But still, still it felt like I've always lacked

As if I wasn't enough

It made me ask myself  when will simply my existence be enough.

Have you ever set yourself aside so you can live by their shadows?

I do.

It's like playing fools.

Trying to convince myself its me but it's not, what a hypocrite.

Have you felt like you're in puppet show?

I do.

Every actions controlled by the strings of this egoistic society

Watched by eyes full of judgment and criticisms

Trust me, they'll overlook you best but number your flaws

Is life a game? a competition?

Cause it if is, I'm a total loser.

How would fighting make sense?

If life's a game where everyone's loosing.