Have you ever have?

Have you ever have apologized for what you've just felt as if you weren't authorized to pause in a bleeding slash?

Have you ever have said bye to almost all of people you thought would keep you forever?

Have you ever have loved someone who wasn't sure if you're just an option or what?

Have you ever have saved all the love you want to shower to someone but turns out, he didn't want to take any of it?

Have you ever have been taken because of convenience and out of convenience will leave you, too?

Because I did.

I have to move forward losing blood in slash and needed to manage the healing alone in fake smiles.

I have realized my common used word is "bye". after discovering that you weren't that strong, they will eventually leave, if no that quick, can be that cold slow wave.

I have loved someone that deep that it drowned me. I waited day after day to see glimpse of false hope. I'm afraid he can't take the dense of my existence. Thank yous for I love yous, how did I survived hanging to a thread like that.

I have said i would give all and I did and he was afraid to take a bit. He refused to take the massive love I am capable of.he wanted someone else to take his place. How hard it is for him to just choose me?

I have been knocked with loud bangs shouting help, and after some time when you given everything and they think it is pretty narrow to keep all of that, they will eventually take some place wider than mine leaving me alone in nothingness.

Have you ever have thought of leave the battle of hurt and end it all?

You don't have to. I never gave up and I live scarred for all of that which made me tougher, stronger and fearless. I have accepted the facts and living as well as how I should have.

Thank you.