Chae Young Shin is sitting beside a window in her room..enjoying a cup of coffee , the fabulous park view , the marvelous sunset and the gentle evening breeze. She definitely is enjoying all of these but is missing someone's company. She is deeply engrossed in her thoughts and is thinking...
" I Wish I could live this moment with you...In fact , many moments like these...accompanied by our "deep conversations" and sometimes "silence" (when it doesn't seem awkward between us and we both understand it) . I wish I could tell you what I feel for you. I exactly didn't know when all of this started. It is hard for me to define that very moment. I wish you could hear my thoughts and understand them. I wish things would have been easier for us....I know may be I neglected it initially...I didn't realize it and in a way did wrong to you. At that time and even at this time we couldn't have been together so, I thought not to drag both of us in to the pit and harm ourselves but then I really miss those meaningful conversations we had. Those meaningful conversations inclined me towards you."
"I wish things wouldn't have changed between us. The moment they changed....it made me think ....Was it my initial negligence that made you do this??? or Was I ever important to you??? or was it all a bluff ???or Are you too busy in your life with your own people??? I really don't know the reason behind this change. Even when we seldom talk to each other our cold behaviour towards each other is enough to drift us apart. How come all of a sudden it is all lost??? or did it even exist???? I think this gap can never be bridged up. Our paths are different..they can never meet. We both should live our lives separately."
After the last sip of coffee, when Chae Young Shin looks in the cup..she thinks and says to herself (in her mind)...
"What the hell were you thinking Chae Young Shin???? Have you lost your mind??? You silly girl ...This is how you will deal with your life??? How can you be weak so easily??? How can you get carried away by your silly emotions???Get this thought out of your head. You have a life..So focus on your life...You need to make it better and live it happily. Why to waste it like this?? Aniyo..Hajimaa...Don't do this to yourself. Wake up your practical side and live your life. "It" never existed..So don't think about it. Be practical, brave , sensible and wise..This is how you have to face life. Don't be an emotional fool. Get this straight in your head."
Then she smiles and says to herself (this time not in her mind)...
"Ahhhhh.....How stupid of me to think all this. "It" actually never existed. I have to make a presentation so I should better get back to my work.