How I would like to spend my Saturday nights.

Sometimes I wonder what my life would have been if I was born elsewhere.

I wonder how I would spend my Saturdays nights then. I would not have to listen to my family drama, people who call themselves my friends etcetera etcetera.

For once I imagine that my Saturday nights are spent differently. I imagine that I am at a pub with friends and a real boyfriend. I imagine myself in a tight red dress, with absolutely straight hair and red lipstick on.
I can see myself happy, as my boyfriend comes over and kisses me. I have a bottle of mild beer in my hand and we dance through the night, half drunk, half aware.

There is a genuine happy smile on my face.
My parents know I am here.
My boyfriend loves me.
My friends are there for me.
Suddenly, it feels so real.

My point is that if I was given a chance to start all over again elsewhere and forget every single detail of my current life, I would grab that opportunity without a second thought.

I just want to start all over again.