How our story started

When a heart got broken, it became either bitter and hateful, or hopeless and empty or much stronger and braver. Well, let me tell you a story about how I met this guy. And how he saved me when he's the one who needed saving.

Maybe you have heard lots of love stories about this type of set up, but I'm going to say it anyway because, for me, it means so special. And I believe every love story is unique in its own ways just like ours.

Before meeting him, I felt so alone, broken and lost. I forgot what I was fighting for. I guess there will always be a time when you will ask yourself, "What am I living for? " I lost interest in everything I once loved doing. Writing stories, making poems, taking pictures, going on adventures, painting, playing the piano, and even reading books. I find it all pointless when my ex left me with his ex, funny right? When everything you though are going perfectly, in a blink of an eye, you lost everything you have. And it feels like he took everything from me when he left.

When my friend saw my wrecked version of me, he invited me to play an online game, a game which I once played before my ex and I met. More like he persists me to play that game again. I thought that maybe it's a good thing to do to kill some time. Long story short, I played that game again with my friend. Doing quests, hunting game money, improving my game character. And most importantly, trying to forget him through this method which actually works but I can't say it works pretty well to the point I don't think of him. Sometimes I think of him when I'm not playing the game. Yeah, it became a bad habit of mine to the point I always sleep late every night.

Until one day, while my friend and I were hunting silver bars, we stumble into this random character in the hunting area. He seems like an old player I thought as he is knowledgeable than me about the game. He was having a chit chat with my friend and I just remain silent because I don't want to interrupt the boys. He even thought that my friend is my boyfriend. And honestly, at first, I thought he was a scammer so I was very cautious and wary of him.

However, to my surprise, my friend gave his email address to that guy easily. I was about to scold my friend because as a gamer, one thing you don't have to give easily is your true identity( from my own perspective and I love to have some privacy). But since I trust my friend's judgment, I did not protest to him. And my friend created a group chat. And that's how our team was formed. 

Since I'm a type of person who likes to sit back and observe, yeah mostly I don't really interact with him. Most of the time, I don't talk to him much, only when it's important. But as time passed by, I found him completely harmless and he's a guy with senses of humor, he is fun to be with. I became comfortable with him. 

Since our team consists of two males and one female, I became the baby girl of the group. From how my friend and he treats me, yeah its fun being with the boys less drama and tons of funny moments. Being with them, I feel like I don't have to pretend to be strong, being with them made me act like myself. Usually, I have trouble sleeping at night but whenever we are playing that game I unconsciously fell asleep while still in-game. And boy, they love to make fun of me every time that happened. From that point, I know something is changing in my life. 

And another thing that made my guards down to him and instantly made us, a click is that we came from a bad relationship. One day, my friend got busy with his "lover" (as he always claims) in the game, it was like a gateway for us to get closer. I started telling my story to him and telling my thoughts. And oh, we like to throw some punch lines with each other. We hang out a lot in the game, doing quest, hunting monsters, and stuff. We talk even the smallest thing as if we don't want to end our conversation. And that became our routine. 

  And oh, I forgot to tell you guys, he had a very nice voice. One time, he told us( or my friend) that he had a band and my friend shamelessly requested him to cover a song. The first time I heard his voice made me squeal like a fangirl. Gosh, he is so good. This leads me to think how could that girl (his ex) replace him with someone else. Guys like him are endangered for Pete's sake! Boy, he had a lot of good points. The list would go on if I were to enumerate it.

However, at some point, whenever he talks about his ex, I kind of feel like a huge pain in my chest. I was having this weird feeling: Jealousy. At first, I thought it was just a crush, but things are getting different

Don't let it be love.

But I know deep inside, I can't deny it for too long. I want him to see me more than as a friend. And with that, I waited for an opportunity to make a move. But not too long, my awaited opportunity appeared. He wants to hear me sing so he requested me to send a voice message to his account, but I had another plan for that.

I told him I was shy to send a voice message and instead he can hear me sing through a call. And I ask for his phone number. I didn't think he would give me his number, but he did. I was giggling and smiling from ear to ear looking like an idiot. 

The first time I called him, the very first time I heard his voice, I was laughing so hard because boy, he sounds so good. His voice made me so shy and maybe that time he thinks I'm an idiot for laughing like a fool. But it feels so right hearing his voice. It makes me calm and makes me forget having a bad day.

And that's how our late night talks started. We talk more through call than in the game. And I keep looking forward to a notification that is from him. 

One night, I don't know, but there is something different that night, out of nowhere, I confessed to him. I thought he was going to reject me because long distance relationship is not something you can take lightly. And I'm aware of that. I know it takes a lot of work, commitment, patience, trust, and understanding, but I know, I'm willing to take the risk again. Distance doesn't really matter because he is worth to take a shot.

And that's how we became lovers.