I. Before It All Began

A. Meadow

It's sad to be alone in this world. It's sad not to have somebody beside you all the time, to tell your problems to, to be your best friend, your comrade, your guardian, your companion...

I felt so lost when we broke up. I felt despair when you left me. I felt horrible when I realized that it was so easy for you to let go and forget. But then, now that I think about it, I guess you were just being "the adult" between us. You did what was best for the two of us. But, I admit, I still haven't moved on. But you? I guess you moved on pretty fast. I just saw you with your new girl. I'm happy that you're happy, but we both know it doesn't change the fact that I still love you. I'm still here, longing for you.

For the past 3 years that we weren't together, I've been thinking of everything we went through together. The fun times, the sad times, I realized that we were always there for each other no matter what. I thought we were forever. I thought you were the only one. But I guess that's not the situation. While thinking, I thought I'd reminisce and tell our story on a website. Just for the hell of it. So yeah, to all you people reading this, this is the story of you and me, before it all began.

We first met on a school event. I was a freshmen and you were a junior. I was staring at you because I found you really attractive. Like, some sort of love at first sight? Like an instant crush? You had dark hair that was a bit long for a guy. I didn't even know that that was allowed at a school. Your hair was wavy and it reached down to your shoulders. It was funny for me because we had the same hair. Maybe that's the reason why, in the first place, I found you very attractive. You were in our university's uniform and yet, I thought you were a model for our university because of the way you looked. your eyes were so brown that I was so sure that you're not pure Asian. Your eyes were so brown that it didn't match your hair at all instead, it matched our light-brown uniform. When I was staring at you that time, time passed too fast and my best friend jokingly slapped my but and smiled smugly at me. I was brought back to reality because of her. When I stared at you, I thought we were in some kind of cliche anime and thought that we were the only people on earth. It's crazy, I know. I couldn't even tell you this even when we were together because it was just plain embarrassing.

Back then, I didn't think these feelings would last but then, some time passed and, yes, I got a bit carried away and stalked you. I asked my best friend what your name was even though I already knew what it was and I've already stalked your social media accounts. Yeah, that was like, uhmmm, my talent-stalking, I mean. I asked her because I couldn't tell her directly that I had a crush on you. By doing this, I'm not going to have to tell her directly, she would just get it. But, until now, I never thought that that would happen.

Me and my best friend Natalie were walking on a hallway towards the library that time and just talking about stuff when I just suddenly...

"H-hey, Natalie. Uhmmm... Remember that guy.... Uhmm... You know, th-the guy that uhmm.... at the cultural event... the tall dark-haired uhhmmm, g-guy..." I couldn't look at her that time because I was so embarrassed!

"Whoaaaaa, waitttt. Wait! You don't mean Seth, do you?" She was smiling like crazy that time! I guess she was just really happy that I finally had interest in a real guy. And by real, I mean, not a fictional guy. Many can relate right? Hihihi

I just looked at her questioning who this "Seth" was with my eyes even though I already knew who he was at that time. "Tall guy, dark hair, white-but-not-so-white skin tone, super perfect-looking?! Wwwwwaaaahhh!!!!!!" She says, "Seth Gonzales! That's his naaammmeeee!!!!" I was going to say something but she cut me off and said "Mmmmmhhh!!!!! Good luckkk!!!!" I didn't get it for a second but, the moment I turned around, I found you walking towards me. I was so embarrassed because firstly, you were looking at me while walking towards me, and secondly, I knew I was blushing. Natalie already left me to go to the library. Okay, I know it's pretty cliché because it's pretty easy to just run away and seem like a bitch but, the thing is, it's embarrassing but, I actually wanted to talk to you that time so I stayed where I was and pretended that I was looking for something and rummaging through my bag. Hehehehe... I know, I'm a ninja. Before I knew it, you were in front of me with your friend behind you.

"You." I was really nervous that time that shivers of embarrassment/happiness left me and shivers of fear ran down my spine. But, I still managed to look at you in the face. Yes, the face. You weren't looking at me so I thought that you had some business with the girl beside me whose standing beside me, waiting for something, i don't really what it was, but that time, I really thought about it and was a bit saddened that you weren't really talking to me. But then, you looks at me and continues, "Y-You. You're Meadow, right? Meadow Reyes?" I was obviously starstrucked. I admit it. Haha it's just that, I really liked you that time like, you weren't just a simple crush? So, I blinked and wondered why you knew my name. Before I could even ask, you continue, "Go out with me." And that's where it all began.

B. Seth

I've moved on but, up to now, I still think of you. I still think of your future. I still dream of our time together. The thing is, I really hate myself for feeling pity for you. You hated being pitied. Besides, you're very strong and independent. I was so sure that I could handle it when I ended our relationship but, months later after we broke up, I did a lot of thinking and realized how stupid I was. I was stupid to leave you and think that you would be okay. That was an asshole's move. I was an asshole. Even my best friend Mendez got mad at me for hurting a girl that much. But, I didn't talk to her. Even now, we still haven't talked since the day-okay, I'll say it-I dumped you. I didn't want to talk to you because I think I'll only be making everything worse than it ever is. Shit. How stupid can I be? I can like, feel my subconscious beating the shit out of me for being such a stupid human being.

I know 3 years have already passed since we broke up. You were my first ever girlfriend and I was your first boyfriend. We shared so many memories together but let's face it. Not everything lasts forever even if you feel like it. When we were together, I thought nothing could break us, ever. But, that was until I met her. I knew that I would be doing the wrong thing if I cheated on you so, I ended it. But, after our break up, I never saw the girl I was eyeing again. I don't know why. I didn't want to come back to you because I knew that that would just be an act of capriciousness. I didn't want to worsen the situation by coming back to you after dumping you.

I'm actually happy now with my second girlfriend, Nina. Like I said earlier, I still think about you. About our story. It wasn't the greatest but, it sure was something. I'm posting this on a website she's not aware of. A blog. Haha a blog by me. I wanted to share our story with everyone because I want to teach everyone something very important in life. So, here it is. This is the story of our first date.

I must say, it was a really funny and kinda embarrassing date. It was our very first time getting a date. Both of us didn't know the first thing about these kind of things! Haha

Before anything happened, when I first met you, I knew that I liked you. I knew from the moment I saw you that I wanted to be with you. The way you smiled, the way you laughed, the way you explained things at our school in our flag ceremonies. I loved your leader-ish attitude. Everything. Everything about you was perfect. I was actually trying to find your flaws because I really didn't see it.

So I told my mom that I had my eyes for you. I told her everything because I wanted advice on how I should approach you. She told me to just go with it. Get to it, y'know? So, I did. I suddenly asked you out and surprisingly, you actually said yes! I couldn't sleep that night. I was just lying in bed and staring at the ceiling. I was so excited for our date. But then it hit me. Where the hell was I going to take you?! I suddenly jumped out of bed and ran to my mom's room.

"MOOOMMM!!!!!! Where am I going to take her?! I- I mean, I don't- I- I don't even--!!" This was an accurate presentation of my anxiety. Haha! My mom looked at me and started to laugh like crazy! At that time, I really didn't know why. I thought she was laughing at the fact that I can't take a girl out properly. But then she stopped laughing and hugged me. She then let go of me and looked into my eyes.

"I guess my 20-year-old boy is not a boy anymore? Haha! So the thing is..." She continued talking and I continued listening. She just advised me to actually ask you where you wanted to go. So, I did.

On the day of our date, our reactions were really funny! I saw you and was like "Okay, calm down, Seth. Calm down. She's a girl, you're a boy... and... uhhmm.. I-I don't know! Arrghhh just approach her!" it was real anxiety talking to you for the second time. Haha! I guess at that time I just happen to really like you that's why  the anxiety was real. Haha! I approached you and saw that you were reading something. A novel! Uhhmm.. I don't really like novels. Up to now I still don't even though you tried so hard when we together to get me into reading! Haha! So yeah, you were really focused on reading so I just sat beside you. You were sitting on a bench on a park. At that time I thought what you were reading was really exciting since you had your eyes at the book and your eyeballs looked like they were going to pop out anytime! Your hands were clutching the book as you hold them. You were also holding your breath. That time, I thought what you were reading was some horror-themed book. But, when you told me the story, it was actually a mystery-crime novel-thingy. So yeah, back to the situation. You suddenly put your book down and looked at your watch. You sighed and I thought at that time that it was the perfect time to talk to you about our date. Haha! Our said time was actually 2:00 pm but I waited for you to put your book down and talk to me for like 1 hour. I was just staring at you. At the way you read that novel. At the way your eyes glowed. I was falling in love with you every second I look at you. But, enough of the cheesy stuff.

"Uhmm.. Meadow?" I say. You looked at me a bit surprised. I must say, it was really adorable. Haha!

"S-Seth? Wh-When did you, uhmm.. get here?" I didn't want you to feel bad so I lied.

"Sorry, I just got here. I'm late. I'm really sorry." I didn't look at you because you'd find out that I was lying.

Raising your hands, your palms facing me, making them go to and fro, you said, "N-no no no no no no! It- it's okay. Uhmm.. It's really fine. Uhmm... Okay, let's just go..." We were really awkward. Haha! But I liked it. I felt really comfortable around you. I really liked being with you.

We first talked about where we wanted to go. You gave me two options. A riverbank or an amusement park. I told you that I was okay with wherever so we went to both of them.

At the riverbank, we talked about many things. It was really awkward at first but we got along pretty well. We surprisingly had a lot in common and found ourselves just talking about many things I don't really remember because they were pretty weird! Haha I really liked the way that our date went. I had so much fun that day. Again, I couldn't sleep that night. I told my mom all about our date.

I think the most memorable moment of that date was when we went to the amusement park and rode the roller coaster. While everyone was screaming "AAAAAAHHH" you screamed the words that I've been wanting to hear for a long time. "SETH! I LOVE YOU AND I WANT TO BE WITH YOU FOREVER EVEN IF THERE ISN'T A THING AS FOREVER!!!!" Certainly the best day ever.

But, now that I think about it, our first date was really perfect. I guess we became "too perfect" and that became the reason why we got tired of each other and broke up? I mean, I admit. I got tired of it. Everybody was saying that we were the "best couple ever" or  "most perfect couple ever" and I guess I just got tired of everything and tried to find something from someone else? Maybe. I wouldn't really know.

Writer's Note:

Hello :) This is just another one of my stories. I hope you guys like it :) Comment what you guys think of it. It would be very much appreciated.

This is a three-part-story and it is just fictional. All characters in this story are fictional. Any resemblance to real persons, living or dead, is purely coincidental.