I Got Fired Today And It Made Me Happy

I got fired today and it made me very happy. Because no longer would I have to sit in my desk and rack my brains out. No longer would I have to blink away the tears in order to see what I was doing. I wouldn't have to force myself out of bed and sluggishly put on my uniform. There will be lesser days when I would feel like I might screw everything up and start a fire. I would no longer need to force myself to do a job I don't even want to do. I feel as though a thorn has been plucked out of my paw. I might even possibly feel less empty now. 

Generally, getting fired isn't something to be celebrated but this is good news for me. Prior to this day I had already filed for a resignation, but I still had to render 30 days. 30 days more to suffer and drown in my depression and anxiety. But today I guess my boss finally realized how much I wanted to leave right away, so he called me in to talk and he finally let me go. 

I don't really know how I got myself into this mess, but I guess it's because I have been making all the wrong choices. And because I don't have a destination in mind, I'm also taking all the wrong turns, the wrong paths, and just aimlessly walking through life. I guess I've been tagging along other people's journey instead of following my own path, copying other peoples' dreams instead of having my own. 

Now that I'm free I will have more time to figure out where I want to go. I can think clearly about what I really want to do with my life. I've realized now that you can't really have your entire life planned out, the circle of life has its own plans. Although you may take a few wrong turns there is a lesson to be learned in each detour. And it's not like I hated everything about my previous job, don't get me wrong. I liked the workplace, it was a good and fun environment, my co-workers were helpful and nice. It's just that I knew that that was not the job for me.

I know you guys must think I wasted a good opportunity. You don't always get the chance to be in a good working environment with co-workers who are willing to help you out. But if I had stayed any longer I would have fallen deep into the darkness, and I can't do that to myself. I have worked very hard to crawl out of the tunnel and I am not going back in voluntarily. I would have set myself and the company in a very bad place.

Whoever is reading this, I hope you're enjoying your journey in life. Don't be too hard on yourself. Pause for a minute or two and enjoy the view :)

"Life is too short for the wrong job" - Jobsintown.de