This could be even called a contradictory poem for my other poem...Let Go.
In that poem I have written about the necessity of letting go but here, instead of sticking to one morale, I abandon that idea and move to a new one?
I know it doesn't make much sense, just like human nature. I have made it my priority to highlight the certain aspects every teenager will once face in their life. Or what they need...we need. Hope you like it?
I know I'm selfish ,boy
So you're not anyone to tell me that
Cause we're all very selfish once of twice
I know I'm admitting it, but that doesn't make me a brat
I know I'm very selfish
So selfish I cant let certain things go
When it comes to leaving it behind
I make sure it stays, by putting up a show
I am selfish, I know
I want to hold things always like a prize
Many a time it doesn't even feel wrong
But it still hurts my conscience to keep hoarding my hive
I don't really want to be selfish now
But what choice do I have left?
I can't get rid of that itch to keep....
But being selfish feels like being pushed down a cleft
Sometimes selfishness doesn't hurt
Sometimes it even feels right
I can hold on to the ones I love all day
But even though I know its wrong, the grip just keeps on getting tight
A day, when I'm asked to make a choice
To choose between myself and my dad
I wonder whom will I choose?
For aren't I selfish, to let this choice make me sad?
I could hold on to them all I like
When it comes to choosing I don't know
I feel like I always love them too much
But would that, to me and them, then just feel like a show?
Alas! I am sorry to say I don't really know the answer to that
I have never really found myself in such a place
But to you, my dear friend, if you find yourself so,
Tell me, would choosing yourself or you're dad would give you solace?
(This wasn't really one of my best poems, but I'll just say that one doesn't really write to impress. One writes to empty yourself,to find peace and to write down thoughts only meant for the inner soul. It needn't be wonderful. It is meant to mean more to oneself. But now don't blame me if you find these lines in my next work!! It is hard to find writing material. And I just gave away some good ones!)
©AkshayaGadre