i love you :(

Do you remember how we started, how the smile on our lips did not get spoiled as long as we were together, how you played and kissed the medicine for all the pain, alleviating all the weight Which I have expended and made, make up my days lacking. Dear, do you remember every fun, every fight that we both survived because we love each other, every tears we both get rid of because I can not afford to lose you, and so are you? So I was expecting so long, so I did take time for a while. But do you remember the first time you met, the first time you were together, when you first smiled as well as your frantic eyes, when you talked to two, as if you were just two as though I had no, we did not In your world. Do you still remember my first cry for it probably is not, probably not, not because you've forgotten, have an amnesia, probably not, because I'm trying to hide the pain, I'm forced to breathe the bitter, jealousy and I do not know why, I'm wrong, because I seem to have taken over my place. Until I'm in control I ask you without a doubt 'Do you want him?' But you say 'What are you, my only friend' love, I'm not stupid, I'm not stupid not to know the special of my friend, I'm not blind, so that your eyes can not see the joy that seems strange, There's something different about him but I still believe, I still believe that not all of you, you have to endure that I'm not talking while you talk to him, and that's not all. You watch night and when it comes to morning, to wink at things like yours, yes, that's not all. Sharing with her, your favorite song, while you're enjoying the music at the same time, that's all there is to it. Because as you say he and I are just friends, I should not be worried. Maybe it is, maybe I'm just too lonely to think of you poorly so dearly I want to apologize to you and for her, sorry for being hurt when I see that she's more likely to make you happy, forgive me when I'm angry and jealous I see that he's building your day when I'm messy, love, love, forgiveness because I have to surrender my love, because I know I'm the loser. Now if the world cycle changes, and you say that you love me and you ask me if we can and say you go back to me, please, do not worry, if you choose between us friends You do not, because it's better for her, not because she wants to cheer you up, not because she's smarter, or better in the field of music, if you think something you've been developing in the past, do not Me. I'm not because I can not stand it, I'm not because I'm not so right, I'm not, not because, I'm not so much, I'm not because I can not fight for it, I do not, because I do not care about you and if you think you have someone who needs to fight, please do not ask me. I'm not because I'm not because I'm a second chance, or because I do not want you and I do not care about you because you do not have to choose both of us, because if I did, I would have just started. I do not want to go back because I'm giving up and leaving but hopefully I did not give you reason, I do not want to be late in the future because I do not want to get hurt again in the same way, I do not cry For the same reason for the same reason because I've been, I love being able to create myself just so dear I ask you if you love me again, I do not.