I played

Yes i know, it's too late now and i guess you are moving away from me. You will never be the same i guess,like  the first time we met. It is fine. You are hurt, you fell for the wrong girl. I think she is right but, I have always been wrong instead about everything I did to you. Yes, I was infatuated by you, but you were by her and then you became a prize for me to win. I brought you into my  contact, made you my best friend, tried to know you and made you know about myself. How perfect was my plan, to make you feel something for me and then leave you behind forever.
But everytime i did this, it was me who was the victim. Our friendship grew under my  plan but things are not always as we understand.
I used your innocent heart to fake up feelings, I thought the day you stop thinking about  her will be my victory. I am bad, as bad as you can think.
I made you so confused in all this, sorry for whatever I did. Maybe, when I threw the trap i knew a part of me wanted you, but then i entangled myself in it, it is so miserable. I wonder if ever both of us will get out of this. I think not, sometimes I hope not.
But now when you have decided to get out of her memories, I feel like winning but i am tired of this game now so i am taking back my trap.
Yes, I played with you and your emotions bit i am sorry for whatever I did and i feel upset with the fact that in all this, I got so close to you that now i am obsessed with you.
You know what i have to say, you know how stupid i can be, you suggest me the favourite kind of songs and what not. You are my saviour sometimes i think, and it's even true.
Now i find my peace with you but i am nothing more than a loser. Nothing more than this. I played with you but ultimately it was me who had been played. I feel miserable with the fact that I played with myself.. In all this.