Thanks for meeting me

I don't remember when i fell for you, I didn't want to. You had her with you, your best friend or girlfriend whom we all thought first to be your sister. Crazy but you both look so similar. The entire batch had to talk about one thing are they siblings or gf-bf. I hardly cared to be honest. You were not the love of first sight but a slow drug i guess. It all started when you started noticing but ignoring me at the same time. You made me confused.
You passed by me, talked to my friends who stood just beside me but completely ignored me. I wanted to say a hi to you but never gathered the courage in the beginning, since you ignored, I did the same. You did notice me but.
I started talking to my friends about you then, how offensive i find you when you stare at me and that you scare me. You scared me because you looked at me, noticed me, and me.. Whom nobody did that way.
Through the complete time you stared. And then i tried to study you. So, you were elegant, classy, smart, tall, good and everything that one could wish.
That day in exam when I had to return your borrowed pen and the way you came back and took it from me and the girls hooded, I don't know how you reacted but yeah you smiled in that situation.
I tried to put off you from my imagination, but it was difficult. Actually i never wanted to put you off coz you were so special to me, I wanted to get those eyes on me always. But the way you ignored me in front of everyone made me step back everytime.
Then one day, you raised your hand to wave me a hi with a smile. And this time you were alone,i reciprocated it. To be honest i was happy but i looked back before raising my hand to be sure if it was me for  whom you were raising that hand of yours. As soon as i did, you dropped your smile and looked away.
But i was happy, I went to college told my friends about it. I was surprised but dude i liked you i had to like it, I loved it Infact.
I kept falling for you, your stare, gaze, smile everything was so so so good to me.
Then one day when I said you a hi and the way you stood staring at me saying nothing, just displaying that smile of yours, what do you expect from me then. Your reaction was priceless, I admit. And i can die for it if you give me that smile of yours back. You said nothing, just smiled and stared.
I felt so special, for the first time in my life. I thought I had someone who can be awed by me. And i fell in love with myself.
I started staying  happy, enjoying every moment, dancing on the way back to home in college.
And now when you glared i did the same, our eyes met each time I looked at you and for so long it stayed there. I never wanted to take it off, I don't know about you, why you transfixed yours, but I did because they were the most beautiful thing i saw.
My friends said you looked at me with a questioning look as if you wanted to ask something, I didn't know what to do.
I wanted to tell you what i feel but you were way too out of my league. Also, you didn't love me i know, you maybe anxious about my behaviour towards you. I don't blame you, I blame myself for this and everything. Maybe for once i said everything while  having a duet with you through a song lyrics.
The idea that I won't get you is really sad and painful, hey i lost my heart for you, I am sorry for that. But i am sorry to myself, I don't know what i did to myself.
I still remember the day in this whole process when I returned back home and cried for long telling myself to stop feeling anything for you because I will be hurt.
I can understand that you don't want to think of me in that way, I made up this castle and now if it breaks i am responsible for it.
You were my imagination, my own created world but still thank you for atleast meeting me.