I Want To Know

I want to know what happened to your day. I want you to tell me the things you did even when I hear all those things all over again. I want you to call me anytime and tell me you miss me. I want you to talk to me whenever you're having a bad day. Just like before. I want to know why those things changed.

I miss you. We may not be apart, but I feel like you are so far away from me. You're so near, yet still too far. I want you to give me just even an hour of your everyday. I want to read messages from you, about how's it all going. I want you to still remember me despite how busy you are.

Because I feel so alone. And right now, as I am writing this, tears are falling from my eyes. No - these started falling after our two-minute phone call today. I think I need to consult a psychologist already. I think one day, this emotions will drown me. This sadness will conquer every bit of happiness. But I just really want you to be here or at least, not make me feel alone.

I want to know if ever you noticed the sadness in my voice as we talked today. I want to know if you heard me hesitating to say "I love you too" because anytime my tears will fall and my voice will break down. I want to know if you even noticed little things about me.

I want to know why you stopped asking me how I have been every single day, because I miss that. I miss repeating the "I'm okay, you?" Statement. I miss your name popping on my screen. I miss you. I terribly miss you that my tears really won't stop falling. My eyes, heart and brain are betraying me. I miss you. I want you to come over here right now because you felt something's wrong with me. I want to feel the warmth of your body wrapped around me. I want to feel your kisses all over my face, my hair - I want to be with you right now because it's driving me insane. I don't know whats pushing me to cry, but everytime I think about you tears start to build up and fall, naturally.

I miss you, so much. It hurts.