I WISH TO SPEAK

I know from the start

That this is all wrong

This is not a fairytale nor a song

Every time we meet

This spice that I always seek

When you kiss me on my neck

Oh I cannot stop wondering 

Why did I let you to do so

When I know all of this is just a temporary

Cause it's been a decade

You are already a daddy.

I cannot talk to you whenever I want

I cannot just call you just like that

I cannot speak what is what I want

I cannot help to belittle myself

Like a piece of ant

So little, I cannot battle with the romance you once had

"KAREN" is the name of the love you had

She is dead yet why does it feels like this?

This pang, this pain whenever I breath

When I remember what you told me that night

Of how much you love her and how much you were lost 

When she met her cost.

Thinking of  the situation you offered 

I wish I could end it just easily

But what can I do?

I am hungry for you like a beastly. 

You are dangerous yet I find it sexy

Your looks are deceiving yet I find it challenging

I wanted to take revenge on you

For leaving me for some weeks to have some time with your baby

I went to dates with men I am sure you will be angry

But I cannot help not to take you off my crucial mind, funny

It makes me wanted to die

Whenever you wanted me to go first than be by your side

Because what we have must never be known in public

For we always need to make sure

We are not of sight

The kisses you make out of sudden

For sure I will miss it often

But it hurts whenever I breath

When I realized that

Our relationship must be hidden