I'll Make Myself The Happiest

I can't wait to feel free from all these emotions. I can't wait to fly high and leave all these behind. I can't wait to smile and laugh the way I did before. I can't wait to tell the world how happy I am. I can't wait to again be in moments where I feel carefree and just at ease. I can't wait to finally crawl into bed feeling complete and enough.

I can't wait to just think about plans about travelling the whole world with my family and friends. I can't wait to take pictures of me beside the Eiffel Tower and go to fancy restaurants in Paris. I can't wait to shop clothes and shoes for myself. I can't wait to wear the anchor necklace I've always wanted.

I can't wait to drink coffee on early mornings still with my pajamas on just enjoying the view of the ocean and feeling the warmth brought by the sunrise. I can't wait to get drunk on Friday nights and throw up yet enjoying life.

I can't wait to cry because of laughing so hard with lame jokes. I can't wait to watch movies on weekends on my bed and in between the sheets. I can't wait to look at the skies and the stars and how they shine brightly and just get lost in that moment. I can't wait to hear the raindrops as I sit by the fireplace and reading my favorite book with my socks on. I can't wait to have late runs as the sun sets. I can't wait to drive my convertible and feel the breeze.

Oh, how all of these thoughts make my heart skip a beat... How all of these thoughts make myself so excited... How all of these thoughts motivate me to get by and how all of these thoughts make me want to live and continue to live... Cause I just can't wait to be happy again. Cause I know I will happy again. And that's all I can do for myself, and I'll do it because more than anyone in my life, I deserve to b love by me. I'll make myself happy. And I can't wait to finally do that. I'll just repair my wings and someday, I'll fly again from all of these.