I'll never have you

I never had you, and I knew I never will.

But still...

I was happy I could look at you, even just from afar.

I was happy I get to talk to you, even though you'd much rather talk to her.

I was happy I could hear your laughter and relish in the short span of your company.

Even though your smiles were for someone else, I always felt a warm feeling in my chest whenever I saw them.

Your sweet words were not for me, but I wish they were.

However, there is a line that must not be crossed.

You are running a race towards her heart but I can only stand on the sides. I can't even stand on the starting line knowing I'll just sprain my heart instead of my ankle.

I offer comfort that you do not want, you want it to come from her. So I smile and put it on reserve, incase you want it someday. I put my heart on reserve as well because no one wants it as of the moment.

I knew I couldn't have you, and I never will.

So I'll sit still until someone loves me by their own free will.