I'll Promise

@Alcides N Espinosa

I'll make you a promise today that this family I'll never betray,  the night is a promise and I hope it never ends but life sometimes fade away and I'm honest, in pain we can live till the end.  You know you are on my mind and I'll promise that I'll see you someday so for now I will just pray.

You taught us there was no one to blame in the end, feeling  the same everyday without you, can't seem to find my way, I lost my way when you left.  Cold sweats in the night wake me from sleep,  thinking you are alright,  are you looking down on me right now?  I can feel your presence;  do you hear me thinking of you?
praying for you?  I wish I had another chance to tell you am so sorry.

I know you are in a better place.  I'm still looking for a sign from above.  This is my ultimate frustration scratching the surface,  I turn the pages over and over again and there  is just the ugly truth while I try to live another pretty lie.
Why did everything go?,  I feel I am dead inside,
a hollow shell you left me to dwell on my own misery, my own private hell, now everything is wrong and for how long?

I went outside to take a walk so I could relive memories,  am all worn out,  tired and angry am so goddamn selfish.  I love you so much but I am so lost I can't feel anything,  not much matters to me now, I'm so alone, empty and lost that it should be easier to let you go and let time erode all this.  I'm so weak,  I need the closeness of your skin, your smell before I go insane.

My soul brings tears to my eyes, let's amend
this classic story and steal away the darkened pages I shamefully hid.  I looked at my hands, stained,  am crying and I now know looking at the sky the answer I searched for is there, am free, I am free, I am not another liar I just want to be myself again and feel the beat inside of me, please carry me into another world, let me leave this damn hole and feel the breeze around myself again, feel the rain falling on me...

LIFE  IS  ALL  MINE

I know I am not alone,  I will go on, somehow, I will.   Meeting this future with a thousand hopes beyond the darkness of this moment through the light of hope.
Now I will face forward.