I'm Aching

My heart is aching
And I don't know when it begin
I don't know its origin

The pain is so physical
I can feel my tears streaming
I don't know when I began crying

I don't want to think anymore
And assess this emotion's core
Not sure what to do

But the pain is continuous
It's not stopping
I need to start breathing

Help me turn a blind eye
To all that's happening
I can no longer face this reality

I fear that my emotion will burst
And I'd be disappointed to them all
All of those with wrong mindset

I'm afraid that after this
I have no one to consider as friends anymore
I'll hate people around me and ignore them all

I don't want to live in isolation
But I don't want people's ignorance either
Would rather die alone