I'm Sorry, I was a Coward

I'm sorry if I was holding back my feelings for you

I just don't want to be a fool again

To be enslave by my euphoria

To be a victim of love

Love that wasn't sure

Love that isn't definite if this is infinite

In this temporary world.

I'm sorry, if I was a coward.

I apologize for keeping you hurt

by laughing at your 'I love you's

by only smiling at it

But despite this,

you still manage to love me

Even though it hurts you so much

Love me to the point

No matter who I am.

I'm sorry, if I was a coward.

I know it wasn't funny at all

But still I insist to laugh at it,

To hide the truth

That I'm falling for it

No! Not exactly.

I have been in love for you

Even before those words came out from your lips

Even before you say 'I love you' and 'I miss you'.

I'm sorry, if I was a coward.

It was hard for me to accept

That you love me

Hard for me to say

That I love you too

Hard for me to trust

Since my heart is stabbed a thousand times

And wounded

And scarred.

I'm sorry, if I was a coward.

I don't know when will this heal

Or when will this be removed by time

But if by any chance,

Will you take away the fear that shattered my heart?

Will you save me from the darkness that scarred my hopes for love?

If you do,

And stay by my side forever,

And love me endlessly like it's always been the first time,

You will hear from my lips the words you've been waiting from me

'I love you too'. And that is true.

And I am sure it is you.