it's all magic & addictive

It's when I see you, it's like you take me to places I've always wanted to go but still haven't been there. Your face is just so beautiful but with those eyes that I cannot draw because it's not me whom they're looking at. Isn't it confusing the way I treasure your voice when I secretly hear you speaking. But darn it, I know I'm obsessed with the passion you offer to the world and the presence you give to such boundless space of the universe is simply alluring. 

Probably the lines "you're my heroin, 'cause you got me addicted to you" are getting lame now but yet you make the drugs in me, you're simply addictive. I admit that it makes me feel anxious because I know everyone's in love with that daring smile of yours, because badly I am. And I'm sorry if it bothers you when I dedicated my endless poetries to a person like you, who's so high to reach and too fragile to be broken. I apologize for never running out of words to describe you, 'cause in reality I can't. how could I? if I don't even know the colors in you, the oceans you swim so deep. All I have are abstracts painted in you that I've always wanted to understand but I can't . How can I? if it's not people like me that you want it to be understood by. 

I'm not blaming you nor the universe, even tho I wanted to. For the universe shows no mercy to the thirsty souls that exist, the particular souls that I have. Letting us encounter heartbeats that never beats the same with us. Making us dream for the impossible dream, wish upon stars hoping they can hear us. And why? why oh why everything about you feels so perfect? It's all about the magic that got me addicted.