Journey through life

Well, Asha means hope. Hope for anything you wish for. Well that's what my parents named me as hope for the birth of a girl child. Well this is my story, journey of a 17 year old girl.

I  was born in the winter snow of The United States Of America, foot high snow. It was mid November almost nearing  dew at the time of my arrival. A room full of nurses and doctors running around finding and getting stuff i don't even know but can hear the noises. One of the doctors pick me up an' place me on a bed in my room. I open my eyes a few hours later in the day. I see my family, my mom, dad an' elder brother. The first thing I noticed was they were happy, no excited. Wait, it's not a feeling I can describe, it's a feeling I could experience. The room lit up, curtains down and my father and brother run up to me to look at me for the first time. My mother telling my brother to be careful and not to hurt me.

It's been an year since I was born and this time of the year we were in Bangalore due to my dad's work. Well I don't remember anything about Bangalore but knew I was turning 1 yr  old that day. But who knew since my parents didn't know anyone, my first birthday didn't turn out the way any kid would expect. Well I didn't mind and we were back in the US by the time I knew about it and my parents let me have any number of birthdays I wanted in place of that one special birthday I was supposed to have. And I was grateful to have such parents and our visits to India had been often.

Years and time passed by and we returned to India this time for good. Not knowing what was in store for me, like every 7 yr old I was happy. Happy to be in the country were my parents were born n brought up. And eventually I turned 11 I was in class 5 at that time. The first time I saw my mother in anger, an anger I've never seen nor experienced, the anger that shot up when I flunked in my test. That's when I saw the true faces of everyone.

I learnt no one could be trusted, I learned how to lie, how to life your life without letting out any secrets and many things a 13 yr old wouldn't do. 'Cause  they wouldn't have experienced what I'd been through. That's when I decided I'll let go of anything that I didn't or don't like an' take whatever I liked. That's when life took a turn!!   

Life

I turned 16, a year everyone calls a beautiful and sweet. But that's all a lie, a big fat lie everyone tells. Everyone lies right through their teeth, their faces and their smile. People put up a mask to keep their originality hidden from the world. That was something I learned that year. A lesson I could never forget in a life time.

Friends and everyone I used to know turned to be fake. It felt as if the world turned it's back on me, as if I became a stranger to it, a stranger who's left alone, all alone to survive. That's when I started to discover people, find out about their intentions and their true faces. I literally forgot how to smile and trust people again. 

 And then college happened at my 17th year. A year that taught me how to live again. A year where I got to meet people who I could trust and people who made me laugh till my stomach ached. Two soul-sisters in the form of my best friends, friends who brighten  my mood whenever I used to feel low. And an amazing senior, brother and friend who used to and still listens to all the stuff I used to say and tells his advice and views on anything I tell him. He be the sweetest brother anyone could ask for, and one I would definitely ask for. 

Well that sums up to some part of my journey, there still are some unsaid stories and unsaid and unsolved mysteries.

In the end I left home and I killed myself for the foolish mistakes I made in life making sure no one ever faces that what I've faced. Life can be unexpected, just live it enjoy it and try to smile and make others smile. 

Mantra in life

2 Things:

If it makes you happy, DO IT.

If it doesn't,THEN DON'T.