Last thing lost.

And again I found myself lying on the bathroom floor scratching own hand wondering what's wrong? Am I wrong? 

That empty feeling where you realise in real no one is there around you. 

Lying on the bathroom floor and wondering why the hell and for who the fuck you are crying? Craving for the help from God, sitting there and pleading god to send someone to save you. That's the moment you realise how not ok you are. Your family, your friends all seems falling apart from you, going far far away from you and what you found is empty and lonely yourself. 

Whole day you are smiling with lost mind and as the sun starts to Dawn sadness knocks your door and say hello! I m with you don't worry. I will not leave you alone and will stay with you.

Why everything has to be so unfair? Just one last thing all you had (the chats) and that too got lost and then you feel like shit what am I gonna do now? I am left with nothing :( where will I go? What will I do now? Everything is fucked up. 

And that is when you realise you have completely lost that one person. You remember all the good talks and think that's never gonna happen again and that feeling kills you from inside. 

Crying for what? For the one who never cared? Or for the one who said he cares but never actually did? That's the worst feeling. When someone is lying and all you can do is trust :( only because u cared so much. That person destroyed you but still you talk to him, believe him just because you don't want to loose that person but at some point you know that you have already lost him but don't want to accept that and continues to try because that fear of losing him sacres the hell out of you. And you do whatever makes him stay but at the end you look like a fool.

I don't remember falling in love with you. I just remember holding your hand realising how much it was going to hurt when I would have to let it go. And unfortunately that happened and that hurt remained.

Hurt is not just tears. Hurt is too much deep inside to just flow in tears.