Things left unsaid.

How could a single person can change everything in your life? Every single thing starts belonging to that one person. First they come as a bright light in your life and give you the feelings which you never thought you would need them and suddenly everything gets changed and then they make you feel that you are useless and you can't be a part of somebody's life. 

At one moment they give you the immense happiness and the other moment you stand no where in their life. When that one person leaves everything totally gets changed. You start losing yourself, you get scared of everything, you feel like there is no one for you even if you are surrounded by number of good people. You are afraid of being happy. You are scared of making new bonds, new relations, you are scared of being attach to anybody because you feel like that at the end everyone will leave and again you will be left shattered. 

What hurts the most is that; that one person knows everything what's going on, with what you are fighting but still choose to stay away. They say they care but if you say you care, then show. That person keeps on going without knowing how much they are effecting the other people. 

Your life gets affected totally. Everything changes every fucking thing. You stop eating, you come fuckingly tired but still doesn't sleep, start staying alone. Your day starts with sadness and ends with you sitting on the floor of your bathroom with tears in your eyes and staring at the roof thinking where you went wrong.

Your anger, your frustration starts hurting you and at the end you are left with scars. And those scars haunts you even more like what the hell are you doing with yourself. You start losing yourself. You start thinking now this what I am - an empty soul. Nothing can be done and this is what I am gonna stay with. You do not want yourself and if you do not want yourself , the world is nothing but endings. 

You start unloving yourself just because you didn't get that love from the other person. You feel nothing just empty.

After all this, still one smile of that person is what you wish to see everyday. That one little moment you wait for. That one hug which makes you feel you are at home is all you crave for; that one touch, that brings chills down your spine, but that one person who gives it, "can't be yours".