I've always been the type of person who gets what she wants. I am not just motivated but I'm also driven. I don't stop till I get what I want. But I had to realize and learn something: I WILL NEVER GET EVERYTHING I WANT IN LIFE.
I wanted him. For sure, I know I don't love him yet. Love is a deep word but all I know is that I wanted him to like me back. I wanted him to make me feel the way I feel for him. I wanted him to long for me. I wanted him to miss me. I wanted him to be there for me because I feel all of those for him.
But he is different. He is not the typical kind of guy who takes advantage of the moment. He doesn't just go with the flow. He has his own decisions and he stands firm with it. And there's nothing I could do about it.
My heart is crushed. Although, I never told him and I will never tell him how I feel, I know my feeling isn't reciprocated. This makes me angry, remorseful and I want revenge but for what? He never did anything wrong to me. I was mad for not getting what I want.
Now, I have decided to let the feeling go. I will whisper everything to the wind. I will paint the unspoken words to a canvas. I will listen to songs that speak my heart. I will talk to the moon about him because I know the moon understands me. I will climb that mountain and bury that feeling there. I WILL LET HIM GO because that's how it's supposed to be.
I've learned that things won't always go my way. Sometimes, It's a no for me because it's not meant to be. I've learned it the hard way and in a painful manner but my heart is sturdy and I know I will be okay. Maybe not now, but soon.♥♥♥