To Those Who Believed

You chose to be single for a purpose. You wanted to fix your heart first. You are still picking the misplaced pieces, trying to search for the lost ones. You are trying make it whole again. You may have lost faith in people but you never lost faith in love. You know you can love again with the right people at the right time. But it's a big world out there and not all people have the same purpose as yours and then they come into your life to basically ruin what you have been trying to fix for a long time. They make you love them. You are scared. You are panicking for feelings you have felt before, feelings that broke you but on the other hand, you felt a different kind of happiness, you started daydreaming again and you start doubting your purpose of choosing to be single. You start believing them. You start believing in them. Their words are loving to your eyes and you begin to show the real you again. You are slowly removing your walls and taking them in. You begin to become fragile again. But for you, it's okay because, wow, after a long time, you never thought you could love again because you've been on your own for too long and most of all, you believed their words and actions. Then after some time, things change and the worst part is, you didn't, you know how it feels to be broken so you never want to break their hearts. But people are people, not every one has a heart as yours. Change is lethal when the change is something that doesn't complement you. You begin to feel anxiety again because you don;t understand what's happening or why is it happening again. You don't have the courage to face them and tell them you are hurting because you feel that doing that will make you weaker and desperate. So you feel everything on your own, and your heart, oh your poor heart is slowly shattering again and you can't do anything to make it feel better. All you know is you are in pain and no one can make it feel better but the same person who is causing the pain. But you don;t do anything, you just sit there in silence and feel your heart. You know that, this, too, shall pass. All those words left unspoken for them are just running in your mind. Time will pass and the same routine happens. You go back to the the first sentence then continue reading the same story again. Over time of repeated failed mutual understandings and relationships, that's when you realize, all the heartbreaks have numbed your heart. The end of this all is when you lose faith in love, then, this would cut your routine because there would no more people who can enter your heart because you have another purpose of choosing to be single, it's going to be because there's no more love left to give.