After I finally found the courage to tell my best friend that I struggle with suicidal thoughts, she asked me to pretend that I'm happy. She said I made her feel sad. I'm just so frustrated, because she hurts me everyday, she even makes me wanna die and still I cannot help but love her and apologize to her for things I never did.
My other friends constantly tell me I should let her go, but I can't. I care about her, I simply can't live without her but she is so mean to me and she doesn't know how sad she makes me feel. She is currently ignoring me for no reason... .
My sister replaced me, my other friends don't need me, my best friend was the only person I had left, the only one (I thought) I could talk to. But since she knows how miserable I feel every single day, she doesn't accept me anymore.
I dragged her down with me, I'm a monster and she wants me dead.