Letting Go - It's a brain thing!

I think letting go of someone that means so much to you is the hardest part. You see, it's not just your heart that feels deep chest pains that's pulling you back, it is also your mind. You feel so accustomed to something you don't want to let go of it. It's like a habit.  You always do the same thing for over and over until one day, it stopped. It fucking stopped. Your brain couldn't understand the part that the routine was gone, that you were expecting every morning is not happening again. The smiles you used to give when you read all his wonderful texts. All his hugs and smiles, and sweet whispers. You'll realize it's never gonna be the same thing again. It will never be. And if it does, it wasn't like before anymore. Because something between you two broke. And if you'd both try to relive it again it will never be the same. It will either be different kind of thing or a level up. But it isn't that easy. You'll find time to ever get used to it again.