Life is too much

I don't know how it actually started,
All these questions up in my head.
One day I'm a girl with this whole big dream
And one moment I am this pathetic loser who just wants to scream.

Still hoping for my days to get better,
But everyday seems like it's just getting harder.
Lying in bed doing nothing
But I still find it very exhausting.

I don't want to wake up in the morning anymore
I don't want to feel the pain down through my core.
I don't want to chase something I never asked for
I am just simply tired of it all.

I wanted to ask for a little help
But people have problems they also keep to themselves,
So this battle is just about me and my missing self
I got to be selfish with my own struggles so I left

I left for a little while so I can figure it out
Through silence so I'm gonna shut my mouth,
I don't know how long,
I don't even notice it's been a year and it's still going on.