Lovelife Chaos

It's difficult to open your heart to someone you barely - but seek to know. Imagine yourself being in a 2-year relationship, ending up being single for 5 years, and suddenly meeting someone new; forgetting how it's actually like to be comfortable with the opposite sex - that's kind of how difficult it is. The hardship you need to go through all over again just to discover the interests of another person - like just thinking of it - can be so bothering at times. I'd rather be single and focus on myself, than to open myself to someone who I'm pretty sure wouldn't end up being the "right one". Although, people say that you wouldn't be able to find the right one if you don't go through this.. But then to think again, why bother? Why waste your time, right? 

Overthinking, tell me you have the same issue as I do, because I LITERALLY OVERTHINK all the time. I end up hurting myself emotionally with all the deep thoughts I give myself. What if he isn't like this or that? What if he isn't interested with stuff like this and that? Am I suppose to do this or that? Does he really like me or not? Is he just playing games or what? Am I really ready for any kind of relationship or not? For someone who has been single for a long time, and has forgotten how it is to be with someone or to date someone, it's not easy to open my heart even if a part of me wants to know this person so bad. 

I think to myself, maybe I should just stick to being single. The person who i'm dating would probably be unhappy with me OR it might even be the other way around. I don't know, but the problem is surely with me. Self-issues. I am unhappy in general with the way things are in my life, and I feel the need to fix myself first before going through any of this lovelife caos. Do you think so too?