Made to believe

I was made to believe that I will never be the girl who is brave enough to step out with full control
So I hid in my shell well protected by digging a hole .
I was made to believe that I hurt people with words that I spoke
So I kept quiet and tried hard to match everyone's hope.
One day I was told that my presence brings sadness around
From then I faked a smile to please people in the town
And now i am made to believe that I am strong enough to get anything in life
But they do not know how gradually I have ended being fragile
They make me believe to win the battles of life
While I simply want to enjoy my time
Stemming their high hopes on me, betting on my success as a piece of their treasury
They forget to look at me and notice that I have turned into a self crafted piece of misery
I was made to believe , I am still made to believe when all I want is to be relieved .
Relieved of this menace called life ,
Working like a clown's show where people look at me and smile
And the funniest thing they do is expect me to be what they thought
Ask me to hold the dagger called hope and win the fight but hardly tell me how it is fought.
So from now i will not believe in any thing they say
Everyday I will open up my tongue to slay.
I will not put up a curved face to make someone's day bright
I will stick to everything that makes me feel right
And the day I will believe would not be other's thoughts
They will me mine
Be it a failure , a success or an experience of the battles that I chose and fought.