Me from Your Point Of View

It very contradictory that I've have to account myself in my own story from a point of view which is useless by my point of view but still it will be fun.
       If you are a stranger to me believe me I'm way too serious. It's not because I'm egoic or prideful. I just take a little time to open up to people. My insecurities never allowed me to get through the social norms. I've never known society as it is or I've known it as it really is.
      Basically I'm all alone in my life niether friends nor lover. Sometimes it's a matter to laugh and sometimes I cried very hard enough to let my tears vaporize in air. I am a void and this void is in search of someone who would give meaning to his life.
     From a young age I've read that great men lived for the society and it's people, but all I ever thought was if they lived for society this means they never had a personal life. No family to care for neither friends to spend time with. So is my life. But I'm no hero. I'm an antagonistic person who knows how to do right things in wrong ways.
    Basically all I have in my life apart from my family is my classmate. And all I did for them was irritate them because it was fun. Today if you ask anyone one of them to explain me they'll come up such things which are related to everything in cosmos but not to me. They don't know who Abhishek Kumar Dubey is nd will never be able to know until and unless I explain to them.
    First all of of them have about me is I'm a crack. A fellow who to some sort of is mentally disabled. It was fun for them when they started it now it's fun for me to behave in enthusiastic and childlike manner. They still believe both are same. I like people but I'm fond of being alone. It's my choice not your provided option. When I'm in a jolly mood they are serious when I'm serious they're exhilarating.
    Everything I did they have something or the other to say on it why because I've stopped arguing and explaining myself unless it's not the most important thing. They call it my life my rules attitude. Well I'm prideful and underestimate my pride as ego or attitude and I'll make you regret.
   I'm an atheist and I don't like dwell on supernatural forces for my life to run smoothly and they don't like me being an atheist too. Simply they believe if I'm doing something I should consult to one of them or all if them and then we'll have discussion on it. The committee will come up with a conclusion and everyone should follow it. Bullshit.
    One of them said that I'm an atheist because my girlfriend left me and all I was surprised. My girlfriend went away why he has a problem. Everything in life is that girl for me. Am I stupid or highest level innocent.
     Whoever I am? Whatever I did? Whatever I will do? One thing is common that I'll have to apologize but no one ever apologized for making me the person I am. People create their own monsters. World will push you to the corner and when you push back they cry and call evil.
      Sometimes the world doesn't want a hero to save it. They need a true monster. I am the one. I am Ravana_sura of Kalyug.