Memories

I still remember the time I first saw you. So nervous and excited. You came towards me almost instinctively and said hi. I was of course taken aback but I responded. You had that twinkle in your eyes. Aah, your eyes, you have beautiful eyes. So deep, they always seemed to speak to me.

When you said you loved me it wasn't a surprise you know, everyone knew, even I knew. But I did not know I loved you. I don't know though why I said yes that day but it turned out to be the best decision of my life. 

I have always been kind of silly. Never really serious about anything  in life. Not studies not my career and also relationships. Of course I did not take you seriously. You were just another guy. Just another guy who proposed to me way too soon, infatuated, I supposed. But well, it took me a little while to realise that you were not just infatuated.

That day when you actually just casually mentioned that how would we have our wedding was when I realised that shit! he is really serious about me. And I have not even thought about it. I mean, love ? wedding?! it was all overwhelming. I hung up abruptly; it freaked me out so much. That's just why I stopped speaking to you for a few days, started ignoring you. I wasn't ready I suppose. It had just been 6 months and you were talking about marriage. It was all too much.

But those 2 weeks apart actually made me realise that I too had felt something for you. 

You know, I had never really been the sweet girlfriend. I never had taken my past relationships seriously. Neither had they. I wasn't the type of girl you would get serious with. They had fun, so did I. May be because I was so used to this I never knew that "Love" too was possible. You were the one who actually made me feel that someone like me too deserved love and that I too could be someone's dream girl. It was a great feeling. It was scary too.

It was weird when I said I love you. You were a bit surprised. As I had said it before too. But then this time I meant it. I felt that yeah its love.

You know, you were always a bit chubby and were always conscious about that. And thought you weren't good looking. When I did not love you I realised that nah! he isn't good looking. But when I fell in love with you, You were the most handsome guy on earth for me. I thought Channing Tatum too was thanda in front of your hotness. That line made you blush so much.

Our wedding... umm, after 6 years it was high time we got married. You were excited like a  girl. I was feeling like the groom, I wasn't nervous; I knew I had made a correct decision. You blushed way too much throughout. Through the ceremonies, through the shopping, through all arrangements. It was a fairy tale wedding. We were so happy. And our friends, they went crazy! 

It was the happiest day of our lives. We had married our best friends- each other.

When Sabrina was born, you were so freaked out. You did not know if I would be able to bear with the pain. But man, you were happy. So happy. She was your most priceless possession. She was... our life. Your life...

When we lost Sabrina, I lost you too. I lost the love of my life. Its been one month. I don't know when are you going to be up. The doctors say you don't want to wake up. The shock of seeing Sabrina dying in front you shattered you. But please, wake up now. I cant deal with all these alone. I lost her, We lost her. lets not lose each other. Please, just forgive yourself. That accident was not your fault. 

Your best friend needs you. Please come back.

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 I left the hospital leaving behind a half shattered face and a full shattered heart. He did not wake up today. I would come back tomorrow again. May be some other story of his life will bring him back. Will give him the will to get back. And give me a reason not to give up already.

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