I'm a mother. A single mother i have a 5year old boy, he grew up not knowing his dad, i never wanted that but faith did. I know where he's dad is but it seems like his father can't care less. I'm though but when it comes to my son i become vulnerable, my ex and i were separate in very long time, he contacted me after so many years and telling me that he wanted to see his son, my mom don't want but i still insist not for me but for my son, i don't want that someday my son will blame me with everything. If i'm the one who's gonna ask, the real thing is i don't want my son to know him but it's too selfish, i want to be the best mom i can ever be, so even though i know my son would just get hurt i still let his father meet him but unfortunately his father suddenly had some errands to do, i did believe his excuse but the longer we chat the truth was revealed he didn't show up not because he has something to do but her wife (i'm not a third party i'm his first, the wife i'm talking about is his present ) is mad knowing that he will meet with my son. He did it before he did it again, i'm hurt because I'm a mother who only want what's best for his son. I don't want him to know his father but my son still deserve to know him but everytime i tried to make it okay his father will just mess everything. sometimes i still want my son to have a father whom he can lean on, a father where he can run to when he has a girl problem, a father who teach him how to protect himself with bad guys, a father whom he can be his best pal. It really breaks my heart knowing that it won't happen because his father is a big Ahole. I'm his mother his father and his best buds.