I never dated, because I was too scared of heartbreaks. little did i know then, friends can break your hearts too.
yes i know, you don't miss me at all. you never loved me, you never cared. and you still don't. you're gone, I won't hold you back no more but I miss you. I miss you when I drink coffee and its 3 am, I miss you when I am about to sleep, I miss you when I walk down the lane hearing all the horns, I miss you when I cook something because you're not here to eat up everything. you found out you're better off alone, I don't know was it my fault or it was just your ignorance towards my care.
I had a best friend, who made me feel complete. when I was with her, I felt I need no one else. I felt complete, this feeling was new. you said, you find your long lost sister in me, I guess it was a lie. because you don't leave sisters in the middle of the chaos. 17, I had my first heartbreak. this year, I picked myself up, I haven't cried and that's what scares me. this pain is so sever deep in my chest that I can't even lighten it by crying, I can't cry but feel this pain growing as more I think of you.
I am angry, angry at you for not even once, not even once missing me. after all i did for you, after all the little things i did for you to be happy, after all the free love i gave to you, this is what you give me? you have my number, you have a choice to unblock, I don't. well, I feel like a fool to miss a person like you.
I am gonna promise myself, to not miss you anymore.
BUT I STILL MISS YOU, I MISS YOU.
you ruined me, ruined me. I hate you, but I miss you. ironic isn't it?