I have this thinking or nature you may say.
I firmly believe and practice ‘forgive and forget’ thing.
So much so that if someone upsets me, I forget all about it soon after and return to being my normal casual self.
I did not believe in holding grudges against anyone.
I mean why should we? There’s only so much moments you can possibly spend with each other, then why waste these precious limited edition moments on negative emotions.
I understand these negative emotions are inevitable but what good would it bring if we just hold on to these unhappy things and end up feeling all frustrated and missing the good parts and then longing and regretting why you ever fought in the first place.
So I don’t hold on to these.
But recently I have realized how this, so called good thing I thought I have, is such a big crap.
You see, I never even mind the occasional or rather most of the times, taking first step, to resolve issues.
But it seems this trait just makes the other person habitual to your constant forgiveness and making the whole thing as it never happened or that it was all a petty little thing.
In other words, they start taking you for granted, big time.
Then it got me thinking on the lines, whether all those times you offered help or assistance as a sheer gesture of being a good friend, and they express all that gratitude, was it all a fake or some sort of manipulation.
All those times, when you felt good to spend time with them, was just a mere illusion or that they shared the same warmth.
How can people fake all that.
Does humanity or things like feelings doesn’t exist anymore.
I don’t think there’s any monetary or otherwise gain one could possibly have after putting a person through that or rather himself.
With each passing day, each person I get attached to, each person who doesn’t turn out the way I imagine, each person I part my ways with, I realize, how weirdly complicated is the entire human race.
Every single person varies from other and there’s absolutely no generalization or judgment you can pass on a group.
But what option do we have anyway. There’s no way I learn anything from these and change the way I am. Just doesn’t feel like it.
The mere thought of changing me according to each person is just so overwhelming.
Probably we should just accept life as it passes by.