Need but not want

Yes i need you, i need you because you are a part of me. I need you because i love you. But i dont want you here. I just wish i could throw you out of my life! I dont know. Maybe i am too frustrated or maybe i am too tired of trying.
You know what hurts? Trying 100% each day and getting 0% in return.

Yes, i did understand you everytime. I understood all your situations. Each and everything. So you know what? I am tired. I cant anymore. Maybe you call me selfish. But you were selfish too. Yes i need you, i love you. You are that part of me i wish i didnt need. But i dont want you.

I really dont know what to do.. i am just confused. I dont want to be disrespected anymore. I dont want to be treated like this anymore. But still, i just need you.

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#Just expressing my feelings,i know the writing is not good. Sorry :(