It is all about this one choice. This one day when I woke up with the fear of fading away without living, experiencing enough, exploring, traveling, learning from my mistakes, learning by interacting with new people, making something out of my existence, get inspired, affect someone's life, go out of my comfort zone and discover what this life has to offer me. I remembered how normal the last days were going, knowing that normal was never my thing, I realized that my days were passing by without learning something new or at least something that matters. I looked back on the wrong decisions I've made and kept wondering about how I made them and what was the purpose behind it. I simply knew that at a certain point in my life I went wrong and for the first time I admitted it to myself and to everyone else, and after you never know if you never try. I wasn't ashamed, I felt like I was finally breaking the glass and it felt so good because I knew that I wasn't taking it anywhere in my new life anymore. I was going with the flow, going with what society teached us, what everybody else think is good. Well guess what ? it wasn't good for me, it was a bad choice after all but I knew I could still do what I love and move on with my life. You know, sometimes you make choices and sometimes choices make you and I did both, I made the choice and I want it to make me a better person, make me stronger. I know it's not going to be easy, but it is worth it. I know I'll have those days where I'll go back and think that I could've stayed depedent, reliant to everybody else and still be fine but deep inside of me, I know it's not true. Growing apart gives you the ability to really discover what this life is about, to get to feel what everybody's going through, to know how you have to fight to keep going, how it isn't always easy to get what you want.
Now I'm in the eye of the storm, I'm living and discovering more about myself and I'm learning not to judge others by their appereances because you never know what that person has gone through. People are more than just acts and appereances, what you wear, how you walk, how you talk, whether you meet society's expectations or not. I see it more like your favorite books, your favorites songs, your emotions, your tolerance to others, your flaws, that gleam in your eyes when you talk about something you love, how you see beauty in everything, all these little things make you who you are now. These are the elements of your personality. Other's looks at you does not define you and your life is just what you choose to make of it.
Here, I've let it all out and I'm proud of it. Be nice to people, live your life, keep your enthusiasm about things you love, embrace your fears, believe in yourself, leave you mark and always remember those wise words and beautiful morals we get out of our favorite books because those are the most important, they are made with love of somebody's experiences, somebody who was brave enough to talk about it all, to offer it to you and to let you read all about it. Always keep in mind that you deserve to have a beautiful life, that without you nothing was going to be the same.