do you remember, that time, when we were watching the last episode of season 2 of 13 reasons why, and we both started crying when this song came up, and crying I asked you to promise me you'll never leave me. remember? you held my hand and hugged me tight and told me how you're life will be incomplete without me, remember? you told me how much I mean to you, you thanked me for everything and promised you'll never even leave even if it costed you your life, you remember right? I don't think so you do, but I do, I remember each and everything.
I've lost many people on my way, but its always you, you, I come back to you each and everytime a song hit me deep enough to give me chills in my spine, I don't even cry now, I guess I can't. even if I seem fine, trust me, trust me im not. im trying so hard to make it through, every night i get these dark thoughts that just makes me wanna give up everything and not feel anything at all. to catch the bus of acceptance, to catch the bus of being loved, I dropped my self esteem i guess, dropped my happiness, don't wanna shed no more tears, in upcoming years I don't wanna be sad anymore but I can't help it.
I don't wanna be like this anymore. can you, can you please come back. just for one night, come when you're not sober, when you've had too much to drink cause thats the only time you say what you really think. im not good at heartbreaks, got 3 in the past year and all i can do is manage to breathe somehow, to not breakdown each and every second, and let my self, live.
you don't care, you never did. i don't even believe in karma no more, im here breaking apart, you're there having the time of your life, I wish i knew this before, friends can break your hearts too.
I had ALL and then MOST of you, SOME, and now NONE of you