babe! baby girl, are you there? listen to me, please. there is something you should know, please pick up my call.I know um, its hard, but please, listen to me once. please pick up my call one last time.
I listened to his each and every voice note a hundred times i guess, I could feel he was sobbing, I could listen his voice break as it usually does when he cries, I could feel he was in pain, he was breathing heavily. never felt this void in my life ever, 3 years 10 months I guess this was the timeline of this beautiful dream like reality. I really wish I could just one last time, one last time hold you like no one else could, caress your body against mine, love you in a way, in a way that you don't feel like going back to the reality. touch you, feel you in a way, in a way we forget the world outside our warmth. all i can do, all i can do now is wish.
love? this word is too heavy, too heavy for me. Its hard for me, to replace myself from your heart with someone else, harder for you. I already knew, I am going, I don't have time. the one who has time is you, the one who shouldn't spend his whole life getting over me is you. I want our love to fade away, I can't be with you anymore, I can't hurt you by making you fall deeper in this pointless love!? I already knew about this, even when the doctor wasn't sure then, I was. I can't let you destroy yourself when i go. I can't see you shed in to pieces, maybe that is the reason why I am not with you in these last moments of my life, I want to be with you. But I guess, it'll be easy for you to forget me and move on if i just disappear. maybe, maybe you'll easily let me go in this way.
I'll always love you, maybe its 3 in the morning, maybe I'm barely alive, maybe I am already leaving, maybe I'm falling, falling in this. maybe we'll be together some other day. maybe we'll love some other life, maybe we'll be forever some other time.