Only a memory

They come back whenever they want.

They never thought first, what you've been through.

They just appear when you're already fine and doing good.

Why do they act like they treat you like you're some kind of a pawn that can be manipulated?

She said she misses me. She misses us.

I miss her too. Do I ?

Sometimes i feel like i miss us. her.

But when I think hard enough analyzing what i really feel ..

I think I just miss the memories.

How we were before. What relationship we had. What happened in the past.

I ask myself what if we've been able to have our second chance? 

Would it work? Would the past mistakes wouldn't repeat? 

Wouldn't it haunt us back ?

Then I thought, if I give her that chance, i know to myself I can do all that I could again.

All the love I can give. All the risks. For her.

Then I ask myself, would she do the same if I gave her that chance ?




I paused.

I imagined her. What status she's in. What kind of person she is now. How she talks to me. Her actions.

I observed.

Do you know what I saw?

I saw that she changed a lot. Changes she undergo without me. Then I observed myself. 

Maybe Im just bluffing. Or maybe I changed too.

I realized. I just miss the past.

The memories.

Who we are before. What we are before. What we had.

I only miss the memories.