You left me with a void
And it is silly I am remembering you today
When I should not
It's been long
But to ponder upon your void
I doubt if it has ever been filled
I know I tried a lot
But the heart never waited for someone new to flash in the online section as it did to see yours
Switching into fb to see you online was the biggest happiness
I don't feel that anymore
I can never count the number of times
My eyes stopped to look at you
Diagonally, straight , every five minutes
To find you sitting there
To find you near me
I remembered your birthday, when I didn't remember my friend's
I still remember it
But who cares to wish
I have other works
One of them is trying not to miss your absence
If you only knew about the fullness I felt with you
You would call me crazy
It hurts to be like this , I knew
But not so much that I would wake up with sore eyes dried of tears a few years ago
So dried up and dead that I would never look at you
Even if I wanted to
Your memories beat me like a lost song
I don't remember the lyrics anymore
Just the tune plays rarely at the back of my mind
What an inspiration you are !
You taught me how less I was
And how great I had to be
I did same
But now I don't search your integrity
It's been long
I learnt to sing even new songs
With new people
But the void , the acceptance ,the comfort
In having you or thinking to have you
Can never be the same
And it is sad ,very sad.
I guess I am past the past
But the problem is that
It still breathes
Somewhere inside
In me.