This has grown to become a widespread epidemic
what you ask?
This thing to deal with two different versions of people:
there's one version in my mind whose perfect,
Just the right amount of friendliness, concern, romance...
This version is very honest and trustworthy and never lets me down.
this version always wants to spend as much time as possible with me, never wants to not be connected.
And there's this other real version who isn't very perfect..
Whose thoughts and opinions baffle me at times, and makes me think how the hell did I even talk to this person.
I make a brief decision to not give into any temptation and forget about this person, but then again I have other version in my mind,
mostly made up of some past great moments,
which pulls me into his grip again and I entirely forget about some petty decision I made.
And I connect again for the umpteenth time.
Without caring for my previously made conscious decision, without thinking why I made such a decision in the first place, without recollecting how much he hurt me.
I just forget and go back to adoring this person.
Again I get hurt, and again for old times sake, or rather due to this perfect version I have, I forget, and hence the cycle continues.
sometimes makes me wonder, what's wrong, is it me having these dreams of being with a person who knows me, understands me and probably cares for me.
moulding the person I met into the cast of the dreamy person the person I wish to be with...
and expecting multi fold due to some good moments spent down the line...
or is it getting hurt by this real person as he can't fulfil my expectations and in that process.. just ignoring the real person somewhere...
Gosh.. so complicated right?..
But life is such I think.. at least in my world.. where I think about everything... and decipher every thought I have and moves I make..
all this, is just a matter of perception... People with different perception.. think differently, act differently...
sometimes they think some way , act other way and end up being all messed up!