PT Guy

It’s been a month since I am having a crush on you

I wonder why until now I am still dreaming about you

Have I fallen for you?

You damaged my cerebellum

You crossed over in my myocardium

I tried to ignore

But I am being in love even more

I don’t know your story

We never talked personally

But you make me happy

Thank you for the butterflies you’re giving

Even though you’re doing nothing

You’re just a simple guy

But you make me feel high

I think you like someone

But, you’re still my only one 

          I dedicate this poem to the PT guy I admire. Why is it like this? Do you ever get a weird crush on someone that's not even attractive but you're just attracted to them for no reason? I feel weird, I don’t know why. You’re not that handsome. You’re not that tall, but I like you so much. In my 100 seeners (viewers) in my stories in messenger application, you're the only one I am waiting for. In every person who chats me on Facebook, I wish it was you. Even when I’m studying, in every sentence that I read, I always think about you. Sigmund Freud says, you should release your inner thoughts because it will haunt you again and again. It’s what we call catharsis. I write about you, I talk about you to my friends for how many times, and they’re almost tired of what I am saying lol, and why is it you’re still in my mind all the time? 

          Albert Bandura is right. Sometimes, catharsis has a reverse outcome. Lol. As like as if you're angry, sometimes venting out has the opposite effect, it increases your aggression. People who feel better after venting, the more aggressive they are. Sometimes it's not a good idea. Haha. I don’t know why I am doing this. I also not seeing you everyday at school, we’re not talking even in person, I don’t know why I am attracted to you. Such a pain. I am somewhat being ashamed with myself. This is so not me. Lol.

           What am I feeling? Am I angry because I hate myself for being like this now? Am I happy because I’m in love? And at the same time I am hurt because I cannot do something? Hahahahaha. Okey, bye. I think I wouldn’t see you again anymore. I am about to graduate. Thank you even we don’t have memories. It’s amazing how potato you are. I just find you cute Lol. I hope you will finally be in a relationship with your crush so you wouldn’t feel lonely anymore. Ok, Bye.

*(PS. PT means Physical Therapy. It's his course.)

           I wonder if he likes me too? He pmed me before in facebook. I just didn't reply because that was the time when I don't care. 

*(Pm - private message)