Questions of the Broken

To Kye

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Wrote this a week after her birthday. But wow. Those were the only words I've written??? I know I've got a lot more to say than just stating a name I don't talk to anymore. So where do I go from here? How do I confront myself of the fear I've been running away from for three years now.

How do I let loose all my broken pieces and just lay them there for her to see.

How do I face her and try to pretend I'm okay now, knowing that's a freakin' lie 'coz truth to tell, I'm still far from better...

Maybe I just wanna spare her from all the lies I've told to everyone else. Maybe she's safer outside the circle, far from the core, and not knowing anything about me anymore. Maybe this is all I get for putting up walls and just building up some more with no plans how to put them down myself.

Maybe one day, she'll be at peace with the fact that the best friend she considered all those years is now long gone, and I'm nothing else but a fragment of the past and a present-day lost cause...

I think I'll be okay with that. I shall try to be okay with that.