Reminiscence

There is a million emotion out there floating in the world, but when this one hit me fo the first time or at least I could understand what it was my whole perspective towards the way people behave changed. It's been more than a length of time that I could fathom, but this time it was something different or out of its natural way. Some people expect you to be there and some return the favor, it may be the course of the relationship we share with them or the complexity of circumstances that were but the outcome can't be bounded within the imagination of either side; instead it the result of the mutual effort put in, even if it's invalidated by the factors that are susceptible to its very own existence. Some part of me felt this jolt today and indeed it hit hard very hard. For a second everything around me was a paradox and my own decision-making sense was paralyzed, my own actions were unaccounted for, believes were being rejected by my neural fluid. Arghhh! What have I done or what have I made of myself? Recollecting my limbs I found some light to walk to, grabbed on my earphone - put a low-fi indie song on repeat, and went on to write something. That something is completely distorted and full of holes. But hey to my own surprise, you are at the end of that rant. Voila !!