As I was on my way home, the rain started falling down. When the rain started, my thoughts also started playing with me again. It was reminding me of everything that could make me sad in an instant.
Overthinking while walking my way to our house. I didn't mind if I was still on the sidewalk or if I was on the middle of the road where people would carelessly hit people.
Thinking about everything that is happening in my life right now, I asked myself "What is my purpose here?" Every single day that I wake up, I always feel down. The feeling of not wanting to get out of my bed because I just want to sleep all day.
That is so not me.
I used to be a jolly person. But one day, things just got fucked up one after another. Now, I just had to pretend that I'm okay every single day. How will I end this?
Suddenly, I was hit. Not by a car, but by its headlights. It hurt my eyes. Then, I woke up. I was near the middle of the road. I jumped back to the sidewalk immediately, thanking God for waking me up from overthinking.
I have been depressed for weeks already. I can't even help myself. Can somebody please help me?