Siomai

Nathan and I broke up two weeks ago. I shouldn't feel nervous seeing him right? Right?! I've moved on already, we're just going to settle this matter quickly and it will soon be over. 

I held my bag close and then forced myself to enter the restaurant. The smell of Chinese food brings back memories. I remember we used to dine here most of the time and order a lot of siomai until are bellies are round then we would laugh and make jokes about it. 

"Fuck," I muttered under my breath. Delete these thoughts before you regret it, I remind myself.

"Melissa, over here," he called, raising his right arm in the air so I could see him clearly.  Have I been standing for so long? My knees feel exhausted. Slowly, I walked closer and every step seems to get heavier. He's sitting in the corner of a circular table. 

Why do I keep seeing round shapes? I muttered under my breath.

I grab the chair in front of him. "Sorry, I'm late", I smiled proceeding to sit comfortably. Since we're now facing each other I have a clear view of his look. His hair has grown quite long since we were together and his face looks edgier. Has he been working out? Damn, I couldn't see because of that black hoodie. 

I snapped myself back to reality, feeling guilty of what I was fantasizing about and then drink my glass of water.

"It's okay, I don't mind. Just like when we used to date remember?" he smiles nervously, realizing what he just said. I guess this is how he wants to play it then. First the restaurant, now this. Getting me to reminiscent of our past will not work Nathan. I smirked.

I took another sip of water. Thank God this isn't alcohol or I might seriously get drunk."Nathan, let's be honest." I lean closer so I could intimidate him. "I know why we're here."

I guess its working because he's fidgeting like chicken. "L-look, I know we didn't end well and I've been such a huge jerk to what happ--"

"Waiter!" I looked around for a nearby staff. I called again hoping somebody heard me and so I could avoid this conversation getting all sentimental. 

Nathan grabbed my hand from across the table which started me."Melissa, listen to me please." His eyes look watery and apologetic. Is my mind playing tricks or am I seeing this right? 

"I'm sorry I hurt you. It's my fault why this relationship didn't last. I lied and cheated with your best friend. I couldn't imagine how much pain you went through for the damage I caused. So if you're angry, hit ME. Do anything you want to ME Melissa. I'll take ALL the blow and I won't dodge or complain. So just hit ME!"

I pulled my hand from his tight grip which is now a bit reddish. "Are you done?" He really thinks that I would lash out here in public like some immature bitch. But not today. I have to compose my self and be elegant to get this matter done according to what I want.

Nathan looks confused of my reaction and as he was about to say something, the waiter arrived with a list of menu and hand it out to us.

My patience is running thinner every second and my thoughts are racing of what I should do next. Should I make him beg more? Maybe he should kneel or kiss my shoes like one of those soap-opera. Hmmmm....

"Maam?" the waiter asks patiently."What's your order ma'am?"

"She'll have those steamed pork siomai please" Nathan answered for me while gesturing at a picture on the menu.

"That's not what I want." I snapped back.

"Okey, how about fried siomai?"

"I'm on a diet so I'm not ordering anything," I lied crossing my arms. Fuck why does he know me too well? He even remembers my usual orders.

"But you called the waiter..."

I'm dumbfounded. Oh shit what happened to being composed and elegant?! 

"w-what I'm meant is, I'm not ordering anything that is pork. " I replied trying to sound confident. Thank you brain cells! I owe you for your hard work. I guess I did a pretty convincing job because I see Nathan nodding as well as the waiter.

I quickly scanned the menu and read out loud the first vegetable dish I saw. "hmmm, I'll have the chop seuy." I said, adding a smile.

Nathan continued to order some pancit, steamed and fried siomai,. I know this man is going to hell because of adultery and now because of gluttony. He really is something. 

"Thank you ma'am and sir, your order will be served after 30 minutes." The waiter said while taking the menu list. "Are you still willing to wait?"

"Yes." Nathan replied firmly while looking directly at me. Is he trying to convey a message?

My eyebrows naturally expressed my disbelief. 

The waiter said some things and then he left but I can barely make out what he's saying because I'm still trying to figure out my next move. 

When the waiter left, I pull my chair next to him and whispered to his ear "Is that true?" Our eyes met and I could see he's shocked expression. Is this bitch blushing? That's right, you better feel giddy you bitch.  "You're  REALLY willing to wait?" I added, leaning forward to make him more uncomfortable.

All this time I worked up my brain cells trying to analyze every possible scenario to make this guy chase for me again but I never thought it's going to be this easy torturing him.

Nathan Perseverante, I always thought you were THE perfect boyfriend because you know exactly what I want and what I need. You're like a customized boyfriend built for me. You take me on dates, shower me with gifts, introduced me to your parents like every girl wished to experience in a romantic relationship. 

You understood me well.

It never occurred to me that you are gay.

 After cheating with my best friend Kyle, I lost my sanity. All along, the only reason you get close to me is because of my bestfriend. You disgust me. Not because you're gay but because you used me.

Faith must have pity upon me because now the tables have turn and your stupid plan backfired on you by falling in love with me. Guess what? You think you're fooling me again? I'm not gonna watch and wait for your schemes explode into my face. This time I'm going to make you pay.

You hear me Nathan? I pull myself closer and like every seductive scene in every drama, "I'm going to make you pay."

"huh?" Nathan stared at me looking confused.

"I'm going to make you pay for the siomai, silly". I replied with a smile.

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omggg should i continue the story? This is my first time writing without editing and now I think the plot smells juicy HEHEHE pls don't come at my me *insert peace sign* i would love to hear your thoughts so pls don't be shy and comment heheheh i'd appreciate it a lot <3