I never thought about how relationships really affect me. Until I read a post online. It had me thinking about those around me and what they do for me. I realize it was little to none. I thought about how I would do anything for them. I realize that they probably wouldn’t go that length for me.
No one taught me how to have friends, or how socializing works. Thinking about it, the very thought makes my stomach turn.
Its sour. Painful. Thinking about how I mean little to my friends.
This is what my head tells me.
I have no choice but to listen seeing that my head is the only one that talks to me. Maybe I am at fault, I can never understand others feelings. I could be considered narcissistic at this point. I’ve been going on hoping there would be change, I’ve tried but here I’m brought back down.
How do I cure this stomach turning of mine? Will that pain ever end? Will the pain in my chest stop once it’s cured?
There’s an answer to these questions but where do they lie?