The antagonist

If i have to write my love story, I definitely will not be the protagonist. I was the one who messed up. I was the one who cheated. In nine years spent with my love, I lied. A lot. I ruined her life, broke her heart, damaged her soul. I am the reason for the wall she has built after I left her. In short, I am the antagonist.

My imperfections are clear to me now. But people want to change, dont they? Time would come they'll realize how evil they've become. Guess my time has come. Or would like to believe it that way. I wanna change my ways. Is that possible? Faithfulness, honestly, sympathy - thats what i lack and thats what im trying to have now.

For now, maybe its better to find myself. Improve myself. I dont want to break another girl's heart again. Im tired of being the antagonist. I wanna love how she loved me. I wanna feel how she felt things. I wanna be the faithful guy for sure a girl's all looking for.