THE FEELING INSIDE

Since little kid ,we grow up together, I consider my sister as a best friend and a twin sister . Even though I have a bestfriend, they are my peers, but still she's the best of the best for me. No one else can replace her.

She made me happy and she loves making jokes. One time when we picked up our sister in airport. She barrow our sisters phone and she take a video, our sister ask her if what she was doing, she said "this is my vlog.", We laugh together cause she's not look like a video blogger, she look like a comedian with messy hair and she has a morning glory. Yuck!. Sometimes she's weird. " What the heck." I said

I saw her in front of her study table while her hands are bussy. Her eyes focus on what she doing and take note, you can't see her eyes blinking. I walk near at her and look on what she's doing. I didn't saw her like this before. I tried to talk to her and she said"Shhhh.....", what a beautiful answer. I decided to go to the kitchen and get some drinks for her and then I saw my mom in the kitchen. She was cooking for dinner. She look tired and haggard. I suppose to help her that time but I didn't. I didn't show my concern for her but in inside I wish I could help her in a different way. I hope someday She was the boss and have her own maids.

I go back to where my sister is. I'm walking when something caught my attention. So I stop. My sisters works are scattered. I walk more closely to check If anyone is there, then suddenly I realize. She did it by herself. She's sitting on the floor trying to hide herself in the corner of a room. I hear her sobbing, she's crying. I felt sad. I didn't ask her why because I don't know how to comfort someone including her. But in the end I need to talk to her.

"Ivy What's wrong", I said. She raise her head, she wipe her tears using her hands and she look at me."HAHAHAHA", I laugh.

FLASHBACK

I'm in grade two level while she's in kindergarten. I'm writing when I heard a little girl crying. She sound familiar. I look from outside to check who's that girl and I realize it's my sister. I walk near at her, I put my hands in her back trying to consoled her and then I ask her why she's crying. " Mom left me", instead I feel sad for her, I laugh. A very hard one. "WHAHAHAHA..", her reaction is shock. How do I envy not to laugh, she have a leaky cold in her nose and she also lick it too.

END

Ivy: Why are you laughing?

Me: Hahaha why haha don't haha you haha look haha in the haha mirror.

Ivy: Okay- okay just stop laughing.

She walked into the mirror and she look herself. Then suddenly she run towards me and tickled me from my feet.

The next day I woke up early and I arranged my bed and went straight to the comfort room to take a bath because I'm going to school.

That same day I talked to her about what happened yesterday that I saw her crying.

I feel that no one care about me. No one asked me if I was all right. I feel hurt when I see you happy. I get mad because I'm jealous but I was wrong. I made a mistake because I think about it.

I'm speechless on what my sister confessed. I don't think that's how she feels. I thought she was fine.

I said sorry to her and I told her not to think about those things again and never think about it.

Sometimes you also need to feel people around you. You should also think about them if they are fine or not. They still part of your life. Thinking about them are not overreacting but you only have a care about them. You see them laughing but in inside there is a part that still not happy.