The gloomy cloud

The sound of the ticking clock echoed in the room, while I wrote, "It's over". It took me a long time to press send. My heart was beating like I had ran a marathon. I was afraid because I knew exactly what he was going to say. I knew he would say "okay" without fighting for me or even trying to convince me. I was like a gloomy cloud that hovered around in his life. I knew once I would press send I would single-handedly decide our fate.

I was furious with myself for falling for a person who wasn't much into me. We were together. For him it was a casual thing and for me it had become so serious that if stayed I could never go back. I am an insecure person who craves for love and affection. While he was a person who didn't need anybody or anybody's love to function. I knew the moment I would press that send I would be alone. "But wasn't I alone even with him by my side?", my mind retaliated. "What good is this relationship if he isn't where you are. And if he let's you go so easily then probably is better to leave before it's too late."

I knew that my mind was right and I also knew as soon as I would press that send my heart would take over and make me regret everything. A relationship shouldn't be this hard. The first two months together was nothing but sunshine. But suddenly everything started changing. Day by day he seem to talk lesser and lesser with me until the point where he started ignoring me whenever he pleased and denied all of it when confronted. No, I had to end it. I already was in a very fragile state of mind where I wasn't able to please myself at all. I couldn't let myself go through all of this because it had the ability to destroy my self confidence and self worth all at the same time.

I pressed sent. The deed was done and there was no going back. Even though I knew what was about to happen but there was still hope in me which I clung onto dearly. An hour passed and I still didn't get a reply.

Suddenly my phone sprung to life, and a notification flashed. I fumbled with my phone trying to open the chat as soon as possible and I read his text and smiled.

The text said,"Ok."